I just want to come out of this as best friends

Jungle Fever

Fever. Burning. Heavy. Fever.
Caught gazing at the jungle, the front yard.
Noise all around: insects chirping, animals howling, leaves rustling.
Movement among the grasses and trees.
I want to know you.

"How are you?" I ask.
"I was doing ok."
"You were? How about now."
She shrugs. Leans her head to the side.
"Well, not so good."
"Tell me about it."
Sigh.
"It's just that regular kind of hurt, you know?"
"No. I don't."
She looks into me and says,
"Yes, you do." 

Lost at the edge of the jungle.
I feel it, the presence of heat in the coolness of the night.
Where do we go from here
Standing at the edge of the jungle
I want to know you.

Walking

A walking joke
A walking goon
I stop walking
Walking again
Who am I?
Who will I be?
The time is now. 
What have I achieved?
As much as anyone.
I can wear a dress.
I can do drugs.
I can drink alcohol.
I can do good deeds.
I can work with children.
I can volunteer my time.
I can make money.
I can build things.
I connect with people.
I look at people and relate to them.
I am a golden god.
I am the scum of the earth.
Flying around the sun.
No beginning.
No end.

What will you pour your heart and soul into?

Exotic Animals Such at Panthers

The leopard
The jaguar; spotted or black
A lion's mane
Stripes of a tiger

Decoration of a feeling
They feel as a being
Hot white vinyl fears
Anger seldom makes sense

Declaration of a feeling
Open plains and room to run
Give it space

There's such a reason to live
I see the other side

Be both be one be the other
Stripes, spots, monochrome
ALL ENCOMPASSING TERROR

Learning about life on Mars, via Mexico

To all the women I've ever loved,
I think of you often
But here in the future I will think of you less.


To all the women who have ever loved me,
You must have seen something in me that I am unable to perceive.
(Pathetic I am I know
Got Damn.)


I skipped school once to go to a seedy amusement park in Indiana where I thought Rivers Cuomo ran a ride called "the Sidewinder"
I had such high hopes then.
I thought I saw Frank Black on a bus.
...
Here I am now.
Buzzing like a 17 year old again,
Martian red and sober.
Yikes!
And so I know...
All is not lost and gone forever.


Funny how things float in space.


Lastly,
To my girlfriend, Laura
I've been sinking lately
I'm bleeding green blood from my abdomen
How's that for irony?


Don't bother calling me tonight.
I'm trying to pick up chicks by playing rock and roll.
I am a smoking cigarette.

porch game

collect all the glass

farm boy, farm hand

Off 8th to See You Again

I'm so happy!
You teach Martian Poetry?!?
So do I!
Let's jettison into the abyss together
Tonight.
Seventh grade can be so rough.
Lets bring the stars down from heaven and have ourselves a party.
Little button nose.
Little fire eyes.
Shake me to my core.
The rafters come rumbling down as our rocket breaks through the sound barrier.
Sound stands no chance.
Chances are good.
I'll see you again.
What are you doing tonight?
You work tomorrow?
We all hold three or four jobs.
At least.
At least I'm still standing.
No man stands in no man's land.
I stand in Martian soil.

As Long

Domezone is as Domezone does
Today I splayed out on our new couches
Four hours straight maybe
An afternoon double header
Roman Holiday
Easy Rider
Lesli got dressed all Audrey Hepburn
It was beautiful
I'm still in awe
I wanna fall in love
Into the couches
I wish I had more drugs
And more Monet
To do
More
Of the same


Jazz calls me home
I want to be more crooner
You can't be anything
Limited options from the start
But I think I could start crooning more
A mockingbird lives near our house
Gems and jewels
You can learn anything
Listen to the birds

Hidden valley shake down
Blonde on blonde on blonde
Hold me now and I still have an empty purse
But my soul sings without money

As long as fans blow
As long as dogs bark
As long as feet hurt
As long as horns honk
As long
As long
As long

maybe?

I want to build a colony
But the variables aren't quite right
This is a step in the right direction
Ten times ten is 100
Thats more like it
On a beach
A small civilization
Hold on to your britches pardner
Lets sail
Ride the wave as long as it goes
Groovy

A thunderstorm hangs above the town
Blue and grey clouds hover warningly
Visiting famous buildings
Shaking the foundations of history.
"I am nothing,
I am everything"
A constant juxtaposition
"Fuck you"
It don't want to talk to nobody
But it has to go to work
It must rain. It must pour.
Or blow away. Onto to another town.

hair in the drain

Even if I had all the money in the world I wouldn't be happier than I am now
Even if I had a girl I wouldn't be happier than I am right now
Maybe if my hair were longer
And my liver was a little stronger
And I didn't have to unclog the shower
(But I enjoy unclogging the shower...)
I am a modern day man
My beard is growing in thicker than I remember
I have a lot of potential
I'm older than I remember
My brain is a hidden chamber
Full of holes, turns, and mirrors
A glowing, crystal chandelier
I don't have too many fears
I try to keep the door open
Winds can blow it shut
I don't like being too cold
I could be a hunk of burning love, alright?

next door

I am the mysterious I am the beaker
The mixing bowl.
Its two hot to think.
You are something. She is another.
Can I love both?
Can I be leather?
I do not intake. Only exhale.
Carbon dioxide and trails of nitrogen.
A heavy hitter.
Lay low.
Lay.

blue highway quotes: 1

"I love living in the heat. It makes me feel like a human. It makes me feel like a..."

big dreams

so we all get to that point. we all are comfortable.
so
we move.
we go somewhere new,
yet familiar.
we try on the culture.
we live it.
we are aware of it always.
it holds us in.
a time.
a taste.
taking it all in in order to take it back.
this is important.
this is unreal.
living the dream.
living in the dream.

sun worshipper,
golden ambassador,
light of the world,
night and day,
how do we sew this all together?

Red sun at dusk
Red sun at dawn
I am a husk
I am all gone
My name is Cazz
I like to run
through shattered glass
sharpened cactus bronze iron blood

omens

do little
be more than you can be
you are my little bone machine
turbo speed and free arrow heart
the nectar of the hive
mindfulness of spirit,
fear of the hornet,
thrower of the dark,
ransom awaits
move forward
do little.

Dear Diary,
Today was the worst. Somebody said that I wasn't cool. Not to my face, but indirectly. BEHIND MY BACK. I try not to think of the past too much - of people that I've hurt or how I've been hurt and embarrassed. No looking back. No back tracking. No tracing history. There's only one direction to move - FORWARD. Mars to space jerk: I am cool. I am as cool as I think I am. You are a tool. You are also getting fat. So fuck off.

purple rocker with a green mohawk statue

There is something there
There is nothing there
Where did everyone go?
You are so irritating 
A virus
You suck up my friends
You turn them in to piglets
Squeal for me piggy!
Reet reet reet!
Oh take me down already
Down to the sewer 
The belly of the beast
I'm twisting and turning all night
Whatever the end is
Whenever the end comes
Welcome it


I'm hungry
I'm full
I'm tired
I'm rested
Circles left to run round themselves
Where is my soul?
Around the corner?
Hanging amongst last week?
Next week?
Where is that girl?
The one with the frizzy hair?
I liked her.
I'd jump off a bridge with her.
A means to a romantic end.


Oh darling don't be so dramatic
Fix your problems, choose to love and shit.
It takes effort.
(Why am I lazy, why am I so lethargic?)
I'd like to try.
I do try.
(So why so much trouble, a constant battle?)
Hoola hoops jumping through flaming hoola hoops
Am I not a son of Amber?
No. 
Just Earth and all of her children.
Get up, get out, get lost.
I'm losing it.


Where does the sidewalk end?

4th Planet Blues

I've got a ball jar full of dust
In this city built on rust
When I don't know who to trust
I put my faith in the sun
I am a marble rolling 'round this town
Red and gold with hints of brown
When I don't know up from down
I put my faith gravity
I am a Martian through and through
With nobody to relate to
When I'm feeling blue
I put my faith in red

daybreak prayer

Tree dance high in air
Golden green furry creature
Be my breath today

Martian Poetry

• • honey suckle sweet the sound of my feet the 

    humming of passing cars
    the pavement heat the buzzing of flies upon these streets of Mars
    I be here the calendar boy setting dates throughout the year
    festivals and holidays to drink our Martian beer
    the sands they shift from red to gold and then a dusty bronze 
    the date is set the game well played upon Olympus Mons
    Oh the myth of Martian green and truth in Martian red
    our blood is thick after dark in our Martian beds

Sunday

Here we are.
Time recedes. Sands of time.
Tell me why. Tell me how.
You can see so clearly?

Its all up in the air anyways.
1,000,000 red balloons looming overhead.
Ready to pop.

Bucket o' Chum

In the dark of the night
you become the light
at the end of a tunnel 
a pin prick hole

Semi-conscience 
half alive
breathing inward
the smoke clears
the Earth explodes

So quickly
So eagerly
so strangely 
we move